Time goes by so quickly. I feel like just yesterday I was finding out I was pregnant. And now I’ve got this Amazon little girl in my arms. The reason I wake up in the morning. My daughter. She is the best of me because she is everything I’m not. #mybetterhalf
I love youuuu please post more selfies of your stunning self :D
Haha! I certainly will!!!
For the past year and a half I’ve had every intellectual thought in my mind suppressed, every question I wondered pushed aside. Why? Because I was told ‘so your life hasn’t turned out the way you wanted it to be, deal with it’. So I did, in fact even the process of sitting here typing all this out was incredibly difficult for me because I sat here wondering whether my thoughts had meaning or if I should just stop submerging myself in my imagination.
I used to be such a free spirit, I used to run wild with ideas, be stimulated by the people around me. But then somewhere along the way I got sidetracked and started to talk about who the ‘mean girls’ were or what designer brand thing I wanted. Now of course I don’t condemn either one of those things but my point is that I stopped being me. I had everyone tell me that I overthink things or I think too much. Which led me to: when did that become an issue? When did having someone think too much become a bad thing. When did I start surrounding myself with people that were happy to have short conversations, people that were unable to hold an intellectually stimulating conversation. When did people stop wanting to voice there difference in opinions because they were too afraid of whether or not they would offend someone. When did a friendly debate become an argument?
When did I stop being who I wanted to be to become someone others could easily be pleased by?
Tonight the film Romeo and Juliet was on Foxtel and I asked the guy I was watching it with if he ever read Shakespeare. He said no (of course), so I went on to ask ‘you didn’t learn about Shakespeare at all during high school? His response to me was ‘if I has stayed in high school that long I would be in jail’. WHEN DID THIS BECOME AN ACCEPTABLE WAY TO END A CONVERSATION?
Now back to me. Because you know, this blog post really is about me… I was always very vain with a very deep sense of insecurity and need for constant affection. But beyond this I enjoyed talking. Not about boys, or about what happened in the latest episode of gossip girl. But about real things. Like my thoughts on a book, or who I felt was the most influential person in history. But somewhere along the way I forgot who I was.
I had a dear friend tell me recently that it’s never too late to be who you want to be. These words mean so much to me. They made a little home in my heart and they’re going to stay.
So I’m going to make the conscious effort to be who I was back then. And yes, I’m quite aware that people change. But sometimes it wasn’t for the better. So I’m going to take a step back and reanalyse my morals, interests, and those I surround myself with.
“Sometimes I imagine what my life would be like if I packed my bags and left, without a goodbye, without a single word. Sometimes I wonder whether you would chase me, or if you’d simply forget. Sometimes love isn’t enough for forever.”
You are perfection
Awe shucks ;) that’s very sweet
““That’s all right,” she says, and I have to wonder how many times she’s said that to the people in her life who screwed her over somehow.”
Perfect asian. Stunning body! You seem so sweet!
Aww shucks! We’ll I make sure to eat lots off sugar that’s why
You look like tila tequila 😭
Is it hard to be naked infront of a photographer? Do most stay professional or have some done or tried inappropriate things to you?
Fortunately for me that’s never happened and everyone I’ve ever worked with was very professional! But I’m sure it happens quite often :/ sadly
Definitely a milf now. No surprise to anyone really haha
Haha! It’s a surprise to me! >
Post more and more selfies please. I can't get enough of you :)
Make sure to follow me on Instagram! I post everything there first!! @realshellytran
Woah you lost the weight so well! Your body looks so good. Your ass is delicious!